Phone post

Lame and to the point.

Food: clementine, cashews, coffee. Mex pepper casserole gf rice crispies, flax milk, granola, ham, cashews

Drugs: 4IB 1v, Trazodone, Zyrtec, Singulair, Benadryl, IB2

Activity: nap at 8:30-9:30, phone, lots of computer, Anna’s recital, chiro

Symptoms: neck hurt and felt off all day. Went to chiro and he adjusted some cranial thing. Sore early evening/night but huge difference now.

So tired. Much Exhaustion. Such disinterest in blogging. Wow.

Food: clementine, granola, Beeler’s ham, Cafe Milo soy au lait (huge mistake), several coffee pods, Tulsi sweet rose tea, chocolate chips (Enjoy Life) and WCWPB, several plain Canada Drys, Mexican casserole (I seirously need to write down the recipe, it was amazing) which was mostly peppers, some ground beef, and enchilada stuff with daiya, avocado, fake sour cream, cherry toms & lettuce, Vanilla Chex with flax milk. Lots of water.

Drugs: 4IB and Vicodin. I need to note that every day of this log I’ve taken Allegra in the afternoon but never write it down, except today I forgot to take it. Need an alarm.

Activity: Phone! Phone all damn day! Multiple convos of a minimum of two hours. No wonder I’m tired. Also took Anna to appointments, got stuff for dinner and got gas, made dinner, watched TV. No writing at all. Just phone.

Period: Day 1

Symptoms: Had sudden abrupt neck issue around 5:30. Had to lay down on neck thing and wait for drugs to kick in. Fine after, though still feel foggy. Arm slightly sore. Mostly good today though. Back a baby bit sore.

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Mostly I’m really seriously wiped out and need to go to bed so this is perfunctory. But seriously that dinner. It could be vegan or paleo or just veg so easily. The peppers. The fucking peppers…

In which the author lazily did not record her food and now pays the price.

I don’t know that I pay the price so much as I must attempt to recall everything, which means I will miss something. Hopefully this teaches me a lesson or something.

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Food: Cashews, granola, Crunchmaster crackers and Oasis hummus (the IC stuff), Hilary’s quinoa bites, red and yellow pepper, red onion, crimini mushrooms, lettuce salad, Thai peanut sauce, Mom’s Best Naturals Crispy Cocoa Rice, Flax milk, GF oatmeal with granola, brown sugar, maple syrup, vanilla, White Chocolate Wonderful PB, Diet Rite

Drugs: None! None at all! Okay–except Vicodin and IB I’m remembering. Shoot. And Skelaxin. Okay, so I clearly need to write shit down tomorrow. Crap.

Therapy/Exercise: Chiropractic laser treatment. Some muscle in the front of my leg and the back of my neck, right side.

Activity: Computer. Lots of writing, blogging, TV watching with Dan, went to chiro, made lunch. Talked on phone.

Symptoms: Right now, awesome. Had lower back and leg pain all day, esp left. Got better after chiro but after icing I drugged to finish it off. Now feel fabulous. Slight soreness in upper back but that’s it.

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Today’s big fail was not writing crap down. Today’s big win was that chiro laser, because I feel like maybe, hopefully, this could be the bullet I was missing. It was some cranial thing that fucked up all the conversations down my right side. I would put money on it coming back, but now I will ASK for it when that happens.

I really, really want to get back in the water at Mary Greeley. I want to get on the anti-grab treadmill. I want to build up strength and just do stuff. Part of it is I’m lazy, part of it is I’m scared it won’t work again or will somehow make it worse. But I’m going to make it my goal to call and schedule SOMETHING tomorrow. Even one day a week. Maybe I can make it my goal that if I go twice a week for three weeks I can have a two hour massage. Something.

Tomorrow is another day. In which I will write down what I eat and take for drugs.

The Password Is Vinegar.

This is totally homework, sitting down to blog tonight. Just had to get that off my chest.

Food: Starbucks quad venti soy latte, 3T apple cider vinegar, 1/2 1 c Angie’s politely sweet and spicy popcorn, granola, The Spice’s green GF curry, Tulsi Sweet Rose tea, 1 TBSP White Chocolate Wonderful PB

Drugs: Just now four IB and 1 Vicodin. Will take the usual cache at bed, but if I take it now I won’t stay awake through this post.

Activity: Ugh, today was a mess. Broken up schedule, and I was exhausted. Made the mistake of working between lunch and therapy, and mostly I didn’t work and didn’t rest, either. Napped in the car after therapy while I waited for Anna at school, then took her to the chiro. While I was there had him check my shoulder, which had fucked itself, again. Took another nap at home, in bed, for about an hour. Took Anna to the library, where I did some work, but mostly helped her. Ordered dinner (found money in my wallet!!! Lots!!!), picked it up, and ate it, then worked in the chair until I got my 2k on CTO for the day. Now heading to bed with my Kindle.

Symptoms: Felt awesome all day, but in the last hour my neck got sore. I think its mostly not liking being adjusted. Of course I’m looking up at all the sugar I had today and mostly being annoyed that this little sugar can cause inflammation, but between this and the potatoes, hello. Feet feel pretty good, if a little stiff. Hoping for some magic with the laser tomorrow but not counting on it.

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The funny story I have for this evening is that this afternoon I had a batshit craving, and I solved it with vinegar. I was tired and waiting for Anna, and I fixated on Lay’s potato chips. I resisted because I didn’t think it was possible for there to be anything in them I needed, and tried to isolate the craving. Salt was part of it, but as I unpacked it I ended up thinking about vinegar, and the answer I got back was, “That would do.” So at home I put 3 TBSP or so of Bragg’s in a glass, added water, and took it in two shots. It’s kind of like taking a shot but less fun, and reminds me of pickles (a good thing). It totally killed the craving. I’m going to try that again the next time I’m weirdly fixating.

Had a lot of stupid cravings today but was rarely hungry. The curry for dinner was an obsession. I wanted it desperately, wanted all the flavors and tastes and veggies. I feel like a lot of my food fuckery today was exhaustion-based. Which, I don’t know why because I was only an hour short from the day before, but apparently that’s enough.

I really have been sleeping through the night, though, which is amazing. Even if I wake up to turn over I go back to sleep. I think the Benadryl totally helps that.

Oh, I should mention lip is a tiny bit puffy tonight. Which, whatever.

Was thrilled to realize how well CTO is coming along, and how well 2k a day is working for that story. I worry the pacing is all over, but mostly I feel like I need to get shit on the page right now. They are so adorable, though. I want to pinch their cheeks.

I’m too tired to put a pretty bow on this blog post. But vinegar. I’m doing that again. Maybe even pre-emptively.

I’m already tired of posting and it’s only my second post.

It’s not the time taken to post that’s the most wearisome, though that’s definitely part of it. It’s the consciousness and annoyance of having to account for every bit of food, every little activity done. Reminds me that most people don’t have to do this, and it makes me cranky because I do. Except of course I don’t know that I have to. It’s just the next distraction and possible thing that might help.

Anyway. The rest of today’s accounting:

Food:

  • Starbucks caramel coffee pod
  • Smoothie, banana
  • Veggie burger with lettuce, gf teriaki
  • 5 oz granola
  • Tbsp peanut butter
  • Clementine
  • Venti soy misto
  • starbucks dried fruit (mango orange strawberry)
  • cashews (Planters)
  • Raspberry chocolate coffee pod
  • Oatmeal packet (maple & brown sugar)
  • One blue corn chip
  • romaine/red lettuce/spinach salad with cherry tomatoes, carrot, Thai peanut dressing (GF). Maybe walnuts. I think there were walnuts.
  • Almost half a Daiya GF roasted pepper pizza
  • One piece of Applegate Farms black forest ham (it was a strangely carnivorous moment)
  • Lots of water. Some of it San Pelligrino

Drugs, 3PM: 4 IB, 1 vicodin, 1 skelaxin, 2 stool softner

Also took some of that Aloe Vera stomach stuff at 11:44PM. Sort of generally queasy but not sure why. Might be pain.

Activity: Finished sorting laundry, wrote a blog tour post, answered a lot of email. Took Anna to the barn (45 minute drive there and back). Wrote on laptop at barn sitting at round table on stool. Ran errands before and after. Left house at 3PM, got home at 8. Made dinner (pizzas/salad) and watched Catching Fire with Anna. In bed at midnight.

Symptoms: Leg was wonky all day, but got a lot better while I was at the barn. I think it was the shoes. I put on my orthopedic shoes to go down, and they felt great. I need to start wearing them even in the house. As I sit here now, my right wrist and elbow are sore, some general back, vague pain in back of left thigh, top of right foot, bottoms of feet. No numbness anywhere, just some odd sensations especially in right top of foot. Back got really sore at the barn working on laptop but rubbing shoulder blades on posts helped a lot. No allergy symptoms even though everything was really dirty.

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I’m kind of amazed at how awake I feel even at this hour. Such a huge contrast to yesterday. I wonder if I got into something maybe at Chipolte, or if the hotel had mold/mites enough that it wore me down. Eager for the chiro tomorrow because my elbow is killing me. I think my arm might actually hurt a lot and I’m doing that pain blocking thing, but it’s enough that I’m nauseous.

Mentally pretty okay. I feel a bit blitzed–the thought of reading a book is more than I can take, though some of that may be story overload. Read Carly’s Voice this morning, wrote CTO this afternoon, watched Catching Fire. I think my brain is solitaire-only at this point.

I feel pretty good about the almost completely vegan day. That piece of ham felt vitally necessary, but it was enough for whatever it was I needed. I’m going to bed feeling full, satisfied, and pretty got. Tired but not exhausted. Thirsty, though. I feel like I could drink a lake.